Something I’m aware of, now I’m almost 21 months into sobriety, is the massive shift in ones ability to “do”.

When I start to feel like it’s hard, and it still is some days, I reflect on all that I’ve achieved in that time.

My recent path and life goals were never clearly defined, other than get sober, because after years of full blown denial, deep down I knew what a devastating impact alcohol was having on my life.

Goal – Get sober ✅️

Now that part wasn’t easy, but the journey of self discovery that comes with it is a beautiful and wondrous thing. The emotions, riding the roller-coaster is not for the faint hearted. But the calm, and the clarity that comes after the vomiting part is worth every bit of it.

Somehow, my life is taking shape, through increased ability to get things done, move forward, and not stay stuck in the daily quick sand cycle of drinking.

I’ve got spare energy now for new goals to take priority, and confidence to follow through with them. Not to mention the extra time and money I’m no longer pissing down the drain…

21 months ago, I was in utter despair, screaming inside from the pain and hopelessness of not being able to climb out of the well shaft.

The day I had my last drink, was like giving myself a rope, a harness and a winch. Now that I’ve pulled myself to safety, I’m planning on never falling down that well again…it was dark, lonely and scary in there.

Daylight is much more appealing, you have the brilliant sunlight showing you the way, shining down on the path to whatever makes you happy.

Gardening makes me happy, and a passion for mental health and wellness has replaced my old life and habits. I’m studying now to combine these loves and pave a career in horticultural therapy, something that never would have been possible before.

Little by little your love of life will come back to you. Old dreams might be reignited, new ones formed. Whichever the case, if you feel like you’re stuck on a hamster wheel with your drinking habits, I encourage you to take a brave leap off into the unknown. Rediscover yourself, you are worth it, you deserve it, and you won’t regret it!